I cannot quite put a finger on it,nor pin down the feelings in my heartnow I am home from visiting with you…A deal of history lies there between usas it has lain, gathered over years of awkwardness,uncertainty,resentment,guilt,embarrassment;over many moments miscalculated,misinformed,misunderstoodthat still stand between us… Now I am older,with grown children of my own;You are oldand …