If you’re disappointed in God

it could be your expectations are unrealistic

Dec 31,2004
[2025 edits]

Maybe it’s because you don’t have a realistic notion of what God is, and what you can reasonably expect. 

Maybe God doesn’t do the kind of stuff you’ve been led to expect God does.  Maybe the role of God in the Universe isn’t what you’ve been taught. 
Maybe it is entirely different from the model of God which you were told was not a model, but a Reality…

 As if we can know! [More later on the distinction between knowing and believing.]

If God is real and absolute and perfectly God, then if we are disappointed, then who do you suppose is working with the wrong equations?  Who needs to reframe the picture? 

Getting the right answer is all about asking the right question.  Oh, and listening to the answer. [Even, recognizing the answers when they show up! This is the first challenge!]

How The Universe Looks From Here

The last day of 2004 I wrote the first words of a blog on a quiet little site of writers and readers. There are now nearly 400 pages of that blog, and it’s still there on Blogit; the site that has become quieter over the years but still hangs on. I still add to it with ideas, stories of my experiences, and anything else that seems to fit the theme.

I’ve been asking the Universe to explain itself to me since I was about 11 years old and asked consciously how to reconcile God with Science. Now and then, I seem to tune in on an answer. All that I write here represents not Truth, but what I believe to be true. I have my reasons, and I like to believe, my reason.

It’s now been 60 more years since I first asked that question. I’ve paused now and then, gotten distracted or side-tracked, but never stopped looking for a better focus on The Big Picture.

The Universe is a great, unbounded, multi-dimensional puzzle, and this is the space where I lay out the bits of it that I’ve collected and how I’ve put some of them together. Here I spill out my bag of puzzle-pieces and patches I’ve connected, and you’re welcome to pick around and possibly discover bits that fit your own picture of the Universe.

This blog explores thoughts and ideas, models of How It All Works, techniques of exploration, stories of my own adventures in the Universe. It is about the physical, the mental and emotional, and the spiritual aspects of being human. It’s about how things are connected, how all our various levels of being interact and make us whole. It’s about how what makes us individually whole can also mend and connect us as cultures living together on this little planet–not just human, but also other hearts and minds, other consciousness in the world.

No two of us points of consciousness have quite the same view of the Universe, but there’s plenty of overlap, plenty to share.

Welcome to the point where I stand gazing outward and inward, and HOW THE UNIVERSE LOOKS TO ME.

What’s Old Is New Again

I have begun a shift of one of my oldest blogs–HOW THE UNIVERSE LOOKS FROM HERE–from it’s original site, Blogit, to WordPress. It has its own page, and I am having to figure it out all over again, how to get things going, how to add tags and categories… All very confusing!

It begins 20 years ago, with the first posts of my first blog ever.
I’ve thought of organizing it by sub-themes, but have decided to post it chronologically, a sort of autobiographical look at my own philosophical evolution.

Please look for it if you have an interest in things pertaining to the peculiar blending of body/heart/mind/spirit that makes up the human being. It’s philosophy, poetry, technique, and what some people laughingly call ‘my logic.’

Good luck finding it, I hope you do, and enjoy it!

The Value of Trust

Hannah Arendt told us: The lies are not meant to be believed, they are meant to make us not trust anyone about anything. And being unable to trust the information we’re given, we can’t make any choices because there are no sure safe trust-worthy choices.

And that’s why so many Americans stayed home on Election Day: Unable to make what they could believe would be a good choice they froze embraced apathy and disenfranchised themselves.

All Republican Presidents after Eisenhower prepared the ground for where we are now. One prime example:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fairness_doctrine

Roy Cohn, young Trump’s mentor, taught him everything he knows and does. Cohn was not a nice man, the Mephistopheles to Trump’s Faust.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roy_Cohn

We’ve lost trust in American government, in corporate entities since they were officially judged to be ‘persons,’ enabling the buying of all things, especially government and elections. 
https://publicintegrity.org/politics/the-citizens-united-decision-and-why-it-matters/

We have all been bombarded with lies: reconstructed facts, misleading information, selective ‘truth’ for our entire lives. It’s part of the human experience, that someone is always skewing reality to persuade us to buy whatever they’re selling: to believe what they need us to believe to hand over our money for their product. 

The defense is in the ability to think clearly, critically about whatever is being offered both as fact and as product.
Who benefits most from me believing what they’re saying?

Follow the money!

Do I really need what they are saying I need?

What does their record reveal about their actual motives and accomplishments?

But critical thinking is not being taught as a basic life skill in America. Quite a lot is not being offered in public education, and private education has its own peculiar agendas. 
https://www.forbes.com/sites/brandonbusteed/2024/02/21/the-growing-discontent-with-american-education/

Just as we’ve leaned towards processed and ‘fast’ food, eating what pleases the mouth rather than what nurtures the body, we have shoved aside the joys of learning and knowing in favor of entertainment so flashy, how can anyone resist? Our lives stultify just like our blood vessels, filled with the plaque that comes from taking in what’s superficially seductive but has little actual meaning or value. We are full up and still devouring, and starving.

Actual social interaction has reduced itself to the two-dimensionality of a screen. Many of us would rather PM or text than make a phone call. We will check ourselves out rather than deal with other individuals. We buy things online and have them sent to us so we only minimally have to deal with the outside world. This is called ‘convenience’ but what else might it be called? 

To have a thing delivered in a day or even less, that’s magically convenient, sparing us ever having to wait, to exercise a little patience. What is it for the real human people who have to make that magic happen? 
https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/carolineodonovan/amazon-next-day-delivery-deaths

Sitting and waiting for an appointment, for food at a restaurant, for the bus or the flight…  Who sits there patiently with themselves anymore, watching the world go about its busy-ness, exploring their own thoughts and imaginations? 
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/07/people-prefer-electric-shocks-to-being-alone-with-their-thoughts/373936/

We are living in a warped, twisted, dysfunctional, anti-human society. It isn’t just the U.S. and it isn’t every community in the U.S. just as in any given community there is a considerable range of healthy to dysfunctional families. Likewise, in every human individual there are conflicting beliefs and imperatives that depending on immediate need or trigger, take over the decision-making. And when, as Hannah Arendt pointed out, there are times when we have lost trust in what our senses and feelings tell us, we freeze… 

And someone out there, pulling strings and manipulating what our perceptions tell us, is benefitting from our bewildered dismay in the coinage of power–which often is, in fact, coinage.

Jan 7, 2025 by CL Redding

Atrocity fatigue…

the normalizing of huge lies & injustices just to get on with life…

The Social Contract of any society is based in trust and reliance on the sources of truth. In these times, trust is one of the chiefest of casualties: We have been lied to in large and little ways our entire lives, all in the interest of someone persuading us to support with our beliefs and our resources their products, whether goods or agendas.

Education of newcomers to the society is the foundation of that society’s effectiveness in the world, the root of its strength and power. In these times we are living the results of the failure of education in our society: a majority population that has none of the skills of critical thinking, of basic scientific method, of the joys of learning and powers of knowledge.

The emotional and mental stability of a society requires trust in the reliability and good faith of authority, like children being able to feel safe, informed, and cared for by their parents. In these times we are living in the most dysfunctional kind of social family where children take authority over parents who have no notion of how to be the parents.

The solution is for those who can to cross that threshold from child-like dependency to making our own decisions, letting go of no-longer-viable beliefs and assumptions, of habits than confirm the rut we’ve been in in all our generations.

Or we can moan about it and fold our tents and let anyone else take over our former territory and be brighter and better than what we’ve let ourselves become.

…Don’t let it get you out of the fight!

1/2025 by CL Redding

What Do You Believe?

Everyone at some time in their life, if they cannot travel widely around the world, should study anthropology. Or at least, read a book or two on the subject. I recommend Edward T Hall’s many wise and readable works.

Since humankind traded instinct for intellect, every society in the world has wrangled with the same questions about life and purpose, about how and why things are as we find them, and how, if at all, we can do anything about any of it. The only actual difference between how ancient humans thought and imagined and conceived of the problems and the solutions, and how we currently modern humans do the same is that we have generations more experience of Reality, of trial-and-error to consult.

But even as the concerns are the same, so are many of our other human limitations. One of the biggest is our belief systems.

We can’t actually know very much about anything. We all say we know, but the truth is, we believe. We’ve become convinced that one belief or another is true, is right and absolute, but as E.T. Hall explains over and over, the things we think of as absolute are actually just cultural beliefs, true only for and in our own culture. Just as individuals center our sense of knowing something around core beliefs so deeply held that we don’t even remember when or why we began to believe them, so it is with cultural core beliefs.

The thing is, it is possible to recall those beginnings of belief. A single person can explore their own depths, and we can also look back at when and why a culture grabbed onto a belief and clung to it as a central truth of existence. For a person or a society, finding those origins is the opportunity to reassess with what we know now about the world, about others, about ourselves, and update obsolete ‘truths’ that in fact we no longer believe.

When we free ourselves of ancient fears and causes, we are empowered to choose the knowledge and values we hold today as the basis for our decisions about where we’ll place our energy.


America Dreaming

Well, here we are in the United States: living in a time of the ascendance of a social order that glorifies greed and selfishness, that revels in ignorance and defies science in favor of clever but inane conspiracy theories. It is a time of Dunning-Kruger exemplars gleefully, self-righteously preparing to lay their agendas on all of us. False ‘prophets’ and their followers abound.

Every civilization has had its catastrophic seasons, its lunatic leaders. Some have recovered and continued; some have crashed and ended or changed irrevocably into something else.

I wonder what made the difference between those destinies.

I wonder if integrity, ethics, intelligence, compassion… all those marks of the mature personality, will assert themselves again and determine the direction of America. I wonder if, when Reality and consequences come in, how many of those who are feeling so clever now will grasp the lesson they’ve set up for themselves.

So this is what the United States is now. This is the choice most voters made for whatever rationales they adopted to make it okay to put a man like this in office. But this is not all that this country is.

I am seeing it as a kind of family where the kids have been indulged for so long, they think everything is up to them. Lots of children but only two parents to rein them in. Lots of immature, self-centered, ignorant, inexperienced kids lording it over just a few mature and sensible authority figures. But those kids with all their delusions are up against a greater authority: Reality. And Reality has no soft spots when it comes to dealing out consequences, the whole family is going to feel it: There are lessons for everyone in this scenario.

Over-Thinking About Thinking

It’s not anthropomorphism to believe that animals think & feel like us. It’s assuming they think & feel the same ways about the same things as we do.

Misreading physical cues like facial expressions or body language leads to totally mistaken interpretations of what an animal has on its mind, what it intends or wants. An ape showing its teeth may be not happily grinning but expressing terror; a cat staring through narrow eyes is not plotting wicked designs, it’s expressing contentment; a wild deer doesn’t come up to you because it likes you, it wants the food in your hand; dolphins aren’t cheerful, they can’t help wearing a grin that is frozen in place. 

For generations, Western thought–always to be distinguished from the thinking and philosophies of the rest of the world–has considered animals to be soulless objects divinely bestowed to humankind for our convenience and use: ‘meat-machines’ put on Earth to supply our needs. The shepherd might have affection for particular sheep, but in the end, it was still about wool and food. We decided we never had to consider let alone care about how they felt about any of it.

We–Western thinkers, that is–have equated our intelligence with our technological capability. But now we know that a bottle-nosed dolphin and even more so, the largest dolphin, the orca, has a brain of proportionally similar size to a human, and that it is many times more convoluted than ours, we have to consider, with all that brain power and no fingers to build things with, what have they been using it for instead?  Consider the world they live in, what stimulates their interest, what needs, what problems have they to solve? What do they care about in their environment with their big brains? It almost certainly will have to do with sound, with communication. Consider that they’ve been evolving to be what they are for millions of years longer than we land-bound apes!

What assumptions have gone unconsidered all this time about what other species care about, what motivates them, what shapes their particular kind of intelligence, their cognition? 

We know that all of us, human and non-human, strive to live, to keep our lives, but how do other animals regard death? We know now that animals mourn the lost, it’s been clearly observed in chimpanzees, in elephants, in swans, in cows, in dogs and cats…  What we see is the experience of loss from the side of the survivors, but what can we know about how animals think of dying? All our assumptions have been based on humankind’s interpretation of death as the worst thing that can happen. 

It isn’t, of course. Pain is worse; suffering is worse; despair beyond all hope is worse. 

I wonder, what does ‘hope’ look like in animals? I can see it when a dog waits endlessly for its person to return, even for years like that dog in Japan, Hachiko, who waited to the end of his life at the train station for his person who had died. 

It’s all cultural, of course, the shape of that dread of death. Some of us dread judgment as did the ancient Egyptians, some of us just hate the thought of not knowing how the stories all will end. Some of us are horrified at the notion of non-existence, the ending of our personal consciousness. There are various cultural visions of some idyllic afterlife, but of all those who have faith in Heaven, how many actually believe that they themselves will deserve it? How many in the world believe in reincarnation, seeing rebirth as a failure, or maybe as the promise of a chance to do it all better?

I wonder if maybe there is simply not caring about what comes next. Could we humans just be overthinking it? Thinking, after all, is what we do with our big brains. I think it was the educator, Edward De Bono who said something to the effect that human beings love to explain more than to find truth: We love to complicate things, to build perfectly pointlessly complex machines to arrive at simple conclusions, mental Rube Goldbergs, every one! 

Who Are We Really?

“…humans have fought each other throughout their existence. Such a waste of the gift of life on our planet.”

I am so tired of those who make such cynical assertions about how useless, hopeless, selfish and finally self-defeatingly monstrous are human beings.

People have also loved and created and protected and cherished each other and the Earth. We have dreamed nightmares but also visions of beauty and improved our knowledge of the Universe even as we have deepened our faith in the human connections with the spiritual possibilities.

We are a complex species, not all the same.

We are a community, a family with infants, adolescents, adults and elders: children, parents, grandparents with different levels of intellect and emotion, different abilities and imperatives. We have mood swings, pathologies, divergences of the senses. We have tons of things to work on, to fix, to adjust, to make room for.

No, we are not perfect, but we human beings have such astonishing potential to make things better. It has also been historically true that we’ve often waited to the very last moment before total disaster to apply ourselves to finding a solution, and we have found one!

That’s also who we are.

11/2024 by CL Redding

Not Quite Alone

I am glad of the cat

who keeps company with me

from time to time sitting

beside me on the arm of the chair

or on my arm despite

my need to have it free

and sometimes I pause from work

or pull her close against me to rest

slightly purring against my chest

and not body-blocking the view

of keyboard and screen…

At night and time to sleep,

she walks across me

with hard pointed feet that

concentrate all her little weight

against nerve points

and tender spots that wince…

I wake to find that I’m her bed

or just behind my knees

she has kept warm and cozy

through the chilly night,

and that is fine and right.

I’ve grown accustomed to my days

of freedom from the worries and cares

the frustrations, exasperations,

the aggravations of a partnered life,

happy so, and unperturbed

by the losses great, inevitable and fore-ordained

that I feel I can no longer quite afford…

My time is mine, replete with little pleasures

of small animals within safe-boundaried settings

that preclude both cuddles and pettings;

The little pointy-footed cat

much makes up for that.


Oct 2016 by CL Redding