Lament For Love

I’m sorry, 
I can’t love you
like a love should be…
Out here I stand
beyond the glass,
the wall of distance
between my heart
and the world…

Love’s such
a quiet subtle thing
so easily drowned out
by need and want
and hungers wailing
from a time
the time when children
learn to love
by being loved…

I’m sorry
my missing pieces
make this puzzle
that is love
forever incomplete…
Yet I want to love, 
you are so very dear
although my heart is mute
and broken…

I know love
is something like
the yearning
crouched in here…
I wish, I wish, I wish 
that I could feel
all that I know is true.
I wish that I could give you
all that you should have from me
without the firewalls
that make my space
a safer place.

I cherish you
as I have always done
I want to know
that this is enough 
for you to understand
all that you are to me.
I would not have
your heart, your life
be broken, too.

2015